Devia Animus Vita

ok, went to see a doctor the other day for a second round of check ups…okie so it was becos my medication had ran out and my head still hurt. anywho, saw my own family GP this time round. realised my doc is funny kinda chap….anyways, took my BP a few times, it was around 135, which was a good deal lower then 160. but he was saying “you know, 135 isn’t that bad…if you are pushing 80yrs old….” everyone’s a comedian nowadays… so had a to take a pee test…yes had to pee in a cup. funny thing was, i forgot how much was the expected amount of pee to be placed in the cup so i gave the nurse a full tank…hahaha…she took one look and went wah….then her collegues turned around and laughed while exclaiming, “wah so much~!!” okie…so i had alot of pee, what did ya want me to do…anyways i smiled at them so the long and short of it was that my pee was fine….no funny stuff inside. my BP is probably caused of my not so healthy lifestyle. and my headache according to my doctor is due to a nerve…well…he’s giving me pills which are kinda good. they make me sleep anyways, have another check up next week so we shall see and i think i grew taller, i’m 1.73m now WOOT~!~!!

was at ktv on thurs nite after meeting…was quite nice…singing and all…happily doin my “shun yue tuan” finally ended wif a dazzling my way…however the second i sat down, i had a brilliant headache…was a flashing pain in the centre of my brain. like someone stuck a hot poker in there. decided to call it a day then. dull throbbing headache went on the next day and carried onto today as well. finally went i stood up too fast just as i was about to go sleep, i had another intense burst like on the first day…was thinking that i probably popped a vein. went to see doctor…told me i had 160 / 90 blood pressure… i was like, wah…i donno what’s the normal but that sounds really high. anyways got a jab in my behind muscle relaxant…anyways going to bed now…dont stress me out..hmm…wonder if i can downgrade?

haven’t been blogging much this month…just too many things happening that i’m a loss of words for, sides if i were to blog everyday, then this month’s entry would have been morose and bleak. well…not everything is bright and beautiful in the world. not everything is dark and evil…there are always splots of grey…there is always the middle.

there so much i wish to do but i lack the courage. so much i wish to do but i lack the strength. so much that i wish to do but i lack the faith. which path is the right one? where can i turn to? am i making the correct decision this time? or am i repeating a mistake?
why must it always be thus? why can’t happiness be pure without the taint of sorrow or regret, guilt and indecision? why must it always be thus?

I guess this is as many people who will probably do this. so here are the results of what you people out there think of me
haha….most people think i’m friendly no one thinks i’m clever nor intelligent…and no one thinks i’m dependable

Dominant Traits

63% of people think that devia animus is friendly

All Percentages

able (9%) accepting (9%) adaptable (0%) bold (0%) brave (0%) calm (9%) caring (27%) cheerful (18%) clever (0%) complex (9%) confident (9%) dependable (0%) dignified (0%) energetic (9%) extroverted (18%) friendly (63%) giving (0%) happy (27%) helpful (18%) idealistic (0%) independent (9%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (0%) introverted (0%) kind (9%) knowledgeable (18%) logical (0%) loving (27%) mature (18%) modest (0%) nervous (9%) observant (27%) organised (0%) patient (18%) powerful (0%) proud (9%) quiet (0%) reflective (0%) relaxed (18%) religious (0%) responsive (18%) searching (0%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (9%) sentimental (9%) shy (0%) silly (27%) spontaneous (9%) sympathetic (9%) tense (0%) trustworthy (9%) warm (36%) wise (0%) witty (27%)

i read this the other day off a bookmark in Borders….
“Love as though you have never been hurt before”.
it struck me as very sweet. but i was thinking to myself, could i do this? simple as it may seem, it is not. for if experiences shape our lifes and who we are, can we truely love as though its the very first time? forgetting past regrets and hurts….i donno the answer to this. maybe its possible, life is always full of ups and downs, of pleasant surprises and crushing let-downs….only time will tell…….

~Ðévïã ĂnÍmu§~ says:
nice??
fleeting- ember says:
ok la
~Ðévïã ĂnÍmu§~ says:
huh??
~Ðévïã ĂnÍmu§~ says:
only okie??!!!???
~Ðévïã ĂnÍmu§~ says:
hahaha
~Ðévïã ĂnÍmu§~ says:
but but but..its my fav song
fleeting- ember says:
haha
fleeting- ember says:
its AWESOME
~Ðévïã ĂnÍmu§~ says:
hahaha….MUAKS

hahaa….u can always count on your friends it seems, no matter what they might think of your taste in music

ack…i think i sprained my lower back….in quite abit of agony now…ack….

arrrgghhhh…..so much work…so little time

somehow i really identify with this song right now. i’m listening to it on repeat.

True - Ryan Canbrera
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[chorus]
I’ve waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It’s time to try anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited
This is true